The Signs

Well. I moved out of my parent's yesterday and I am now here in a whole new place. I am mixed up and feeling all kinds of nerves, fear and excitement. I am definitely out of my comfort zone yet I know I have to try. This is the change I need to figure out who I am and what I want. Most of all it's about time I learned to look after myself without the help of others. This is a challenge for me and as much as I hate being alone and away from the people I love, I have some faith that this is the right move for me.

I like to believe in fate and things happening for a reason. There have been several signs I have noticed about this move that brings comfort to the part of me that thinks I am doing the right thing. These are the signs so far....

• I moved out on 4th July - Independence Day.
• I will be working at the University of Nottingham, a place where I found out after I got the job will also be my friend's wedding venue in October.
• My friend also studied on the same campus I will be based on.
• Before I interviewed for the job I spotted a book in the library of Chatsworth House called 'Chinese Studies' - The department I will be working for is the School of Contemporary Chinese.
• The street next to me has "Dagmar" in the name. My next door neighbour from home is called Dagmar.
• One of the girls that I share with has a running club. I intended to join a running club when I started looking to move to the area.
• In the front room of the house I live in there are  4 bottles of hot sauce. I have the exact same ones back at my parent's house.
• One of my housemates studied at Cambridge - the same University my Dad and brother went to.
• Paramore's song "Ain't it Fun" about being on your own came on as I walked about yesterday exploring my new home and feeling emotional.
• When I went for my first food shop they were giving away free cake. That can only mean good things...

It may all be nonsense and coincidence and I could be making a huge mistake....I guess I will just have to wait and see.

F x